Sertaline

8:30 PM. my alarm goes off, I reached to my bedside table and pull out the foiled packet along with water, Flavored of course, to distract from bitterness of the shame and Failure swallowed along with a little pill called sertaline.

Doctors office, smile on my face head held high! Just one question to wipe it all way, I feel the question bounce around my head I feel the shame well up inside me, just this one question "are you on any medication" my head drops my eyes fixed on my fiddling fingers "sertaline" my voice betrays me and begins to shake "an anti depressant"

Sertaline The pill I have to take so that blood doesn't drip down my arm from the cuts I have carved out on myself, in the hope that I can just feel something but emptiness. Sertaline the pill I have to take in hopes that today I will not take my own life. Sertaline The pill I better not Forget to take otherwise I'll be crazy and the feeling of emptiness will overpower me. Sertaline A lot to swallow for such a little pill. 

8.30pm, my alarm goes off, instead of pulling a foiled packet from my bedside table along with water, flavored of course, A smile forms on my face pride begins to fill my whole body of a reminder of what I did, of what I achieved, of how strong I am! Because Sertaline you haven't been invited into my body for a while now, there is no more emptiness for you to fill, I'm too full up from pride strength and happiness. 

Sertaline the pill I USED to take!

Milk + Blush hair extensions

I get bored with my hair pretty easy and fast so I like to change it up and I decided this time that I wanted ombre and and long hair so I knew hair extensions where going to be a must. I hate trying to find hair extensions cause I know they are either going to be ridiculously expensive or tacky and bad quality and call me greedy but I wanted a good price and good quality so I decided to look around. The normal place I buy them is just a local beauty shop near me and they are good but they are never thick enough for my hair and don't last long no matter how I look after them so I decided this time I wasn't going to get them from there. After a few days of looking around reading reviews  I decided to order these lovely ones from milk and blush. When they come I was so excited I had my hair dye ready to match my hair to the extensions. When opening them up I thought the box they come in was so pretty and was perfect to store them in and keep them safe which was ideal as I was looking for ways to store them safely. Once I opened them up there was two compartments one which was the main part and was sealed with a security sticker and another with just one piece in to see if the color matched your hair, I thought this was a really nice idea as I like the fact you could test them with out causing any damage to the rest of the hair and then just send it back if they didn't match. There was many different colours sets and lengths I got the full head hair extensions classic set in the color Bel air baby with the length being 20-22 inch and I love them.

 they are so soft and shiny but not shiny as in fake but healthy they are super thick and are perfect for my naturally thick I don't find there is much hair lost when brushing threw them plus they are easy to apply and the clips are secure. You can tell they are good quality and was only £110 which I think is excellent for the thickness, quality, and length. From what I have experience up to yet I will definitely be purchasing hair extensions from here again.

I also brought the loop hair extension brush from there at £5.50 and I love this it doesn't tug at the extensions like a normal brush does and keeps them healthy longer.

Locked mouse

So as much as I want to continue my blog and be able to keep it up to date there are somethings that get it the way and can't be helped. For example my laptops mouse pad not working, turns out that I just accidentally locked the pad off but I am not computer savvy enough to find that out for myself lucky my old friend goggle came to the rescue. I will try to continue to post as much as possible and try to work around or fix and problems that may pop up so that I am able to work on my blog and make it more reliable as it is something that I love doing and hope to be doing for a while. anyway this is just a quick update to explain about my locked mouse and my very little and limited computer skills so be patient with me as I still learn my way around computes and blogging.